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In the mental institution I saw my father shaking. My father is a good man, I don't want to ruin his reputation as much as my infamous brain. Nobody wants the family honor to be tainted. Nobody prefers that kind of stigma.
By the time I was seven, my clothes were backwards, I didn't have enough experience to put them on properly, and my mind was gnawed by the early years that passed through its holes without being able to catch them or remember them. Other than the commandments given by my parents, I knew that God was providing me with something else hidden, something that came from the sky that I could not know, and because I was a catalyst for the unknown, I believed that there was someone from afar sending me through events something of my own despite my strength and height in the place, but the commandments were from a height more lofty than I. My grandfather did not believe in idols, but he did. My grandfather didn't believe in idols, but he did believe in life in a way that I always called arrogant. His body wasn't the only one I refused to see. The dead, like the living, terrified me from the time I was young until my grandmother's death. It was even more terrifying. We sat down to break our Ramadan fast at a relative's house and suddenly my father called, “You have to come back right away.” When we entered the house, we found him crying and broken, looking for any hand to give him a hug, “My mom died,” we all screamed and didn't know what was required of us. One crazy day we were in the kitchen, my dad and mom were saying let's make breakfast, and I, after circling the table thinking it was a sacred spot like the Kaaba, said, “Dad, you are deceitful, and I'm trying to throw him with household utensils.” My mom says, ”Omar, this is your father.” “We're your parents who took you off the street,” I mumbled, “Mom, I used to be your father.” We put the eggs on the pan. I could hear the eggs on the pan, and I said to myself, "This is how we have to burn our ideas to cook." We've always been a close family spiritually.
